Thursday, February 2, 2012

It's bad (Megan)

So, I rocked through last Friday (low point) and powered through the weekend (despite being home alone - hello no witnesses!)  But, I hit the wall again Monday.  I just could.not.eat.the.food.  I was starting to add my own protein and then by Tuesday I was following South_Beaech Phase One.  I'm sure it's more calories a day and it's your own food but I didn't think it was that different from Medi_fast.  

I rocked South_Beach a few years ago.  The weight melted off.  My last two attempts haven't been good but coming off Medi_fast and already not used to eating much per day it was an easy transition in that sense.  Only....I am just steadily gaining weight.  Like, multiple pounds. 

I started Googling today and apparently it's a somewhat common phenomenon that trying South_Beach after initial success never goes as well.  Well, WTF?

I am so ready to lose this weight - I've stayed on course (well, changed course, but didn't give into an ice cream sundae or anything) for nearly two weeks.  I was up until nearly 12:30AM reading about lap band surgery and gastric bypass.  No, really.  I am starting to think it's the only way.  Of course, they say that you really shouldn't get pregnant until at least a year after you have it done so that kind of rules it out right now (we'd like to have another sooner than that).

Where does that leave me?  I guess I keep plugging away and see if I can have any success on my own.  Then I guess have a baby and then see where I am and maybe really consider surgery?  I mean, I'm at a loss right now. 

*Sigh*  Medi_fast, you would be so awesome if your food didn't taste so wretched! 

Not really looking for advice, just needed a place to vent and clear my head about this very frustrating journey.